Sunday, December 28, 2008
Happy birthday Emma! You are the light in my life and the center of my heart!
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
I want to take this opportunity to record some of Emma’s nicknames that we have used in the last 10 months. The first one was Baby Poots of course, which our family blog is named after. We also called her Bean Bean before she was born, based on her shape during the first ultrasound. Once she arrived and we named her, Emmerkins became the nickname of choice. And then when we had so many problems learning to breastfeed (both Emma and I) I came up with “Little Miss Milk Maid” and “Little Miss Milky La Rue” to help me get through each feeding session. I know she will love those in about 13 years!
I really liked the “La Rue” and sometimes call her “Emmerkins La Rue”. There are also Emmers and Emmer-fish. I made a whole rhyme for Emmer-fish, she’s my little Emmer-squish, she’s my little Emmer-dish. Then Tony created “Boutros Boutros-Ghali Girl”. I don’t know how he came up with it, but we started singing it to Emma and it would always get a smile and stop the tears. Boutros Boutros-Ghali was the Secretary-General of the UN in the 1990’s. I know it’s weird but it sounds so catchy and it really did make Emma smile. In the first few months of her life she would have very fussy evenings, crying for hours, and singing “Boutros Boutros-Ghali Girl” just worked. I am sure that I am leaving some out, but I’ll include them next time!
Friday, October 24, 2008
I wish I had time to blog more consistently. I also wish I had more time to knit and crochet. I have a lot of friends and family that are having babies and I want to make gifts but it takes me so long to make a blanket. Oh well I guess I'll keep trying.
I am excited about the holidays coming up. It will be Emma's first Thanksgiving and I think we will have all the family together. Well Emma's waking up from her nap so I have to go!
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Today Tony and I are going to a football game, UT v. Missouri. It's my first game since Emma was born. I am looking forward to it, just a little stressed about leaving Emma. But Tony's parents are here and I know she will be fine, it's just hard for me to leave her, and this will be a long time, about 7 or 8 hours. I hope she does ok with someone else putting her to bed, that will be a new thing. So I am excited and stressed at the same time. But honestly I need the break and I hope that I can just have fun and relax, and not worry about Emma all night!
Monday, July 21, 2008
I did get to see her and spend a few minutes with her on Saturday and yesterday evening. It is really hard to see her looking not like herself. But I wanted to tell her goodbye and hold her hand and I'm glad that I did.
It has been almost two years since my Pawpaw died, in August 2006. So I am glad that they are together again. Her Alzheimer's Disease had been very bad the last 5 or more years, but when Pawpaw died she really lost her last link with the world, so in a way she has been gone for a while already.
I am feeling a lot of different things. Sadness of course, but also some relief that her struggle is over, and that my Dad, Mom, and the rest of the family can go on and not see her struggling. But also I feel a sense of dread. My grandparents are all gone. Now I have a baby, and some day hopefully more children. So my parents and Tony's parents are now in the grandparent roles. I dread watching them get older, knowing that one day it will be my turn to bury my parents. I truly hope that they all have another 25 or more years left, but we can never know for certain. Ok, I have to stop this line of thinking. Very disturbing and nothing good can come of it.
Goodbye Granny! I know that you are back with Pawpaw, and your mind is whole again! Thank you for all your years of love, encouragement, and support. I'll never forget your pancake breakfasts, and your wild stories of getting married at aged 16! You are a sweet lady, and I'll always love you.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
My Granny Mangrum is very sick. She's my last grandparent living. But really she's been gone for a while, due to the mental deterioration from that terrible disease that starts with an "A" that I can't spell. She's in the nursing home in West, and since yesterday they put her on oxygen and discontinued her meds, except for painkillers. It will be a blessing when she has passed and is reunited with my Pawpaw. She's been without him for almost 2 years. In 2006 we lost Pawpaw, then last year, 2007, my Granny Peterson. So this year it will be Granny Mangrum. I feel really sad that she didn't get to met my Emma. But I know that all my grandparents are watching out for Emma and she will too.
I've been at home with Emma since mid-April, about 3 months now. I do not regret leaving my job one bit, although I do miss some things about working. Mostly just the time to myself, which I don't get a lot of these days. I also miss going out to lunch and seeing my friends. But I am finding ways to get out and see people now, with Emma. Twice a week I take Emma to Town Lake and walk the trails with another friend and her baby. We do the 3 mile loop in about an hour. It gets me out of the house, exercise, and time to talk with another adult! I also go to a couple of La Leche League meetings 2 times a month, and I've started going to an attached parenting meeting once a month. Attached Parenting is a whole parenting concept I don't know much about it, but I get to see and talk to other parents and there is food at the meetings, so I'm going!
Sometimes I do get frustrated with being at home. I feel that since I'm here I should be able to do so much and have a clean house and dinner cooked, etc. Now, I know that is not possible and that Tony doesn't expect that. But I am sort of an overachiever and I want to be good at my job. I was a good purchaser and now I want to be a good stay at home mom, and I just put too much pressure on myself to do everything, which is just not possible. Even though I know this, part of me still gets down about it. I am harder on myself than anyone else can be. It's just something that I need to accept and go with the flow and relax! Easy for me to say but harder to do.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
I almost can’t believe it, but Emma is 6 months old today! She has grown and changed so much! Yesterday was her 6 month doctor visit. She got more vaccinations and an overall check-up. She weighs 20 pounds exactly, and so she’s off the chart for her weight. She’s 26 and ¾ inches tall, which is in the 75 percentile. She’s sitting alone very well, responding to her name, standing with help, and doing all the other developmental milestones for her age.
We do need to start her on some solid foods. So today we fed her rice cereal for the first time. Tony actually did the feeding. Emma wasn’t sure about the cereal. She kept reaching for the spoon and I’m not sure how much food made it to her tummy, but she seemed ok with the concept of eating. We’ll keep it up with the cereal and then in a few days we can introduce something new. I’m thinking of bananas!
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
I’ve been trying to get a routine established now that I am home with Emma full time. I’ve decided that Mondays are for staying home. I’m not going to make any appointments, run errands, etc., unless absolutely necessary. Mondays are for recovering from the weekend - even stay-at-home moms need that! So on Monday we stayed home, and in our pajamas most of the morning. I did plenty around the house though, and tried to plan our week.
Tuesday is going to be for getting out, running errands, play dates, or appointments. I really over did it yesterday though. We left about 9am, and we were gone all morning, and then went out again after lunch and a short nap for Emma. I didn’t know it was going to reach 101 degrees yesterday! By the end of the afternoon we were both way too hot and tired. So next time I’ll limit my errands to only a few places and try to just get out in the mornings!
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Sunday morning I got up at 7 with Emma, but then Tony took over and I went back to bed from 8-10am! It was so nice to get those extra 2 hours! Tony was great and Emma took her bottle like a pro! We had a good lunch with the family and then headed back to Austin in the afternoon.
Tony helped Emma with a special little project for my present. If I ever figure out how to post a picture I'll post it. Then he picked up a great takeout dinner from Carrabba's. It was just a really nice Mother's Day!
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Jamie, you were a great friend, a true kindred spirit. I will miss you so much. I know you're up in the stars with God now. Please look down on us sometimes, and know how much we love and miss you.
Friday, April 04, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
we have two dehumidifiers and about 10 high powered fans in the house, both upstairs and downstairs. the poor cats are freaked out and we had to move their litterbox out of the bathroom downstairs. the equipment will be here for 3-5 days, it will take that long to dry out the floors and walls. they had to rip up the carpet in places and are going to have to replace the pad. the water flowed from the bathroom to the north, all the way across Emma's room and partly into our room and the guest bedroom. the guys were here last night for a couple of hours until 11pm. all the excitement overstimulated Emma and she didn't go to bed until 1:30.
the constant droning of the fans and dehumidifier is slowing driving me crazy! i can barely hear the TV or anyone on the phone. since we have such an open floor plan, there really is not a quiet place in the house to go, except my closet! i'm not sure i can take 2 or more days of this!
otherwise it's baby central as usual over here.